Been thinking about...

April 15, 2007 (approx. 243 lbs)

I've been thinking about a few things this past week:

Last year, my best friend and I were going for a drive together, talking excitedly about pregnancy and just life in general. She became very serious and said to me that she was worried about me and wanted her child to grow up having her "Auntie". I don't think I said much else to her on that drive and I remember coming home and crying. It was one of the defining moments that opened my eyes to who I had become. Unfortunately, I didn't know how to stop what I was doing to myself. It was almost a year ago, but I never forgot that day.

Now today it is exactly one month until my birthday. I got weighed in at Simply for Life and I have officially lost 64.2 lbs. One of the things I am constantly aware of is how much focus I put on my weight. I have heard of people who get so caught up, even obsessed with health and weight loss that they talk and think about nothing else. I do not want that to be me, so I'm hoping this blog will serve as a means of working through my thoughts and prioritizing my life. God is first in my life and I want to be "caught up" in Him. There was a time when I wasn't sure I would live beyond my 20s. Now I can't wait to be a healthy weight before I'm 30.

April 26, 2007 (weight 233.8 lbs)

April 26, 2007 ( glasses off )

I'm extremely excited that I'm going to be seeing Superchic[k] in concert on my birthday. One song of theirs has really inspired me. I had leukemia as a teenager and the experience changed my life. I realized then that life was precious. We need to savour every moment God has given us. Unfortunately, over the years I began to lose sight, getting lost in my food addiction. I think about who I was and who I am now and realize I need to live my life to the fullest, be who God really wants me to be.

We live, we love,

We forgive and never give up

Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above

And today we remember to live and to love

("We Live" by Superchic[k])